Part 2 of Sept. 23rd

Yes, I did want so bad to be in South AR with Daddy, Mama and Kelly. God is 1st, Family is 2nd in my life and exactly in that order. Later that afternoon I got a call from my sweet cousin, Jennifer. I just bawled over the phone. I didn't know how to comprehend this. I didn't know yet that it was cancer, but I had this horrible overwhelming feeling. I talked with my sweet, sweet Daddy soon after. I remember he said, "Meredith, you and I have always been real close, and I love you....." I don't remember crying with him on the phone. I do remember it was one of the most precious moments. I told him he was going to be okay. We had to think like that. We had no idea what was going to happen. I just prayed for the Lord to help us. I prayed and prayed. Paige was still with me at the apartment and we had a Mary Kay meeting that night...not only a meeting but a fashion show for all Star consultants (I was one of them). I didn't wanna miss out but I also wanted to stay home. Paige encouraged me to go so I did. I had fun "modeling" our new clothes and makeup look, but inside, I was screaming. I was really----in a state of shock. I didn't know what to do. I really didn't. Like I said before, I wanted Russell and I to go to Camden. At that point, we were in the middle of trying to close on our house. We thought if it was not scheduled to close on that weekend we could go to Camden.


I will update as soon as I can with more.....

Why this blog?

I have to say, I debated about starting this new blog. I thought about it so much because it can be so hard to me to type sometimes and hard for others to read sometimes. However, I thought it could help someone who reads this in the long run have at least a little bit more awareness than we had in the beginning.

So, let me start at the very beginning.
It was September 23, 2008; I was having an okay day. I knew my parents were in Little Rock that day and that Daddy was having many tests done. Mama called me that morning and said most of his tests were done and everything looked "normal" so far. I felt better hearing that. Later that day, I went to get my hair colored and to Wal-Mart. When I got in my car, Mama called me. "It's not good." Mama said. "Your Daddy has a brain tumor." She was crying and of course, upset. I just cried so much and just said really loud, "I didn't want it to be that!!" I mean, honestly, the diagnosis of a brain tumor NEVER crossed my mind. I thought it was something that was at least fairly treatable. I drove home and I immediately called Russell and told him. I just cried uncontrollably. I don't know how I made it home, but I did. I called my friend, Paige and she came over to spend time with me. She was so sweet to bring me a frappucino from Starbucks. I just remember that I was sooo upset. I didn't know what was in store for our family. All I wanted to do RIGHT THEN was be with Daddy, Mama and Kelly. All I wanted to do was hug Daddy.

Well, I will finish that days story later. I don't know how often I will update this, but I will update periodically.